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Mood rings.

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468 days
by in Life

Those words always make me think of that one K .

But anyway, why is it that everything, , effects our mood? That the wrong together, the wrong note, pitch, or just sound can make or kill a moment? Why are we so controlled by our own bodies and life around us that IT defines how are is…not by our own choice.
How is it that even through hundreds, thousands even, of years that we cannot learn to control our over this? Personally I believe we never truly want to in everything. That it is worth the downside of ruining our day for the times it makes it.

But still, moods. I never have understood why it is that we are restrained in these meatsacks we call bodies and their many, many limitations. We have so much potential in our minds and spirits…and alot can be restrained or stopped because of the limits our flesh and soul have caused us to have. Yes, I know it is strange to think of it like that.

But if I do not, who then, will?

Simply put, I like to question things no one ever even thinks to complain or question about. It amuses me the limitations we put on our minds and how we react to the world and it’s many hidden, stone set rules around us, and that no one ever stops to think why they are there, what made them so, or even why they cant change. I think it’s because everyone else is satisfied with how it is. It works ? hah.
But for me, even if it works, I want to know why it works, if anything else would, and if so, why choose this way for it to?

I’ve literally sent myself into a of trance thinking about things like this. Thinking so far into my mind and creativity that all my intertwine and are no more at the same . That I’m looking at blackness at night, but I see so many things I cannot fathom into words, sounds, , or colors.
And it sometime scares me that I never hear of else who does the same, .

But I guess that is just how it is, how it goes, how it will be. And for me, I am done with my rambling that is inside my . So until next that I decide to type my , mind, and spirit into words that you can and try to venture and into my world of thought,

goodbye.

Sins.

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516 days
by in Life, Music

tears, broken , lost loves, it never asked.

Sick nights, , , enjoy it while it lasts.

, black skies, and , that is what enclasps.

Empty sex, filled lungs, , lips, and tongues.

Bloody wrists, broken , needless hurt, is this all we’re worth?

Nevermore I say we should be this .

Nevermore I we stay this way.

, , and repeat.

With this the , hurt, and death, we will defeat.

Photoshopness

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754 days
by in Computers, Graphics, Life, Web Design

Okay, so I’m trying to get back into the habit of , and photoshopping daily :]
I’ve been doing off and on…and blogging….never |:

…here is a bunch of randomness from …newest to oldest :]

Christmas Recap

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771 days
by in Life, Love

So. It’s been awhile no?
, really……

First off on the list of things…I GOT TO SPEND A EARLY CHRISTMAS WITH FOR 3 DAYS! :D
We got to spend 3 full days at her ’s house from the 20th-22nd of December :] and they really made me feel like family <3
Got a bunch of nifty stuffies from Madison, her mom Kristi, her bro , and her Grana and Granpa…so overall an amazing week :]

Then I got to spend christmas with my family, that including , , , , , and Aaryn as well :] Almost didn’t get to due to the ice (well & Michael anyway…they like in Ada, o.o )
Also got of stuffies from all of them, and just had a fun time spending quality time with my family :]

Well…I know its a really bland recap, but I thought I’d let you in on my Christmas events :P
Hmm…I guess to fill the dead air I’ll add some pics! :D

Later my bloggettes! :D

Meaning.

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817 days
by in Life, Love

The Point of it all…

What is the point of it all? Really, think about that truly and wholly, and you’ll find its hard to answer…why?

Want an example?

If you told me “the point of it all is to get as rich as you can and your to the fullest”…
I’d ask you the simple question “why?” whoa…didn’t think about that one much did you?

What I mean is sure…it’s nice to have money, and in turn nice things and able to do a lot of stuff…but why do it? Why go out and work your end off, to have finally by the you are in your late 20’s – early 40’s to have hopefully made a good sum of money. Just to spend on things that will be useless soon, breakdown, digress in fun, and pretty much be useless to you once you’re dead.

Oh, okay, you didn’t mean money for stuff…you meant a lot of money to go out, party, get drunk/high, and have a full of wild with a hottie from a club…? Again I would ask “why?”

First off, you can only party so long and all it’s doing is making you tired and sweaty.

Secondly, getting drunk only lasts so long, and doing more will kill you…and getting high on a drug will only do so much for you, and get you addicted, and either…luckily kill you, or even worse make you lose all your wealth on this addiction you made, and be living on nothing, having to give blowjobs to a perverse fat man named “Pete” to get a gram or two of your drug of ….

Oh, but I left out all those hottie’s in the club you get to have all that crazy/wild sex with…right?

No, that’s next.

Sex only fills a need (yes a very good feeling need) for so long, until you have to stop.
And you know what? Just having sex is useless….

”what the hell do you mean ? Explain that statement!”

I plan on it…

Ok, so you take a hot, young woman , do your thing, and she leaves that night or the following morning…then what?…you do it again with someone else….and someone else…and someone else…and…oh…you’re too old…now the hotties think you look like a old pervert…
And you know what? Now you have two options…Hire hookers, or actually to date someone.
But you know what that does? By the time you are done “Having fun, being single, and living like a ” all the girls even worth marrying are , or are not interested in someone who has done every girl he has came in contact with.
So you end up alone, and with a empty place in your home, and your …and you’ll realize that instead of partying, getting quick fixes, and having sex with alot of random women, you should have given a crap about one of them, or another girl.

Because guess what? Good job…your life of “partying” didn’t pay off well in the end…you’re alone…or still filling it with quick fixes, stuck with a girl you got pregnant you don’t , or you have to use your money to get another fill of happiness in the form of booze, drugs, or sex.

And you realize something…you just screwed up ad wasted your whole life on petty useless things…all those “stories” you were able to tell friends are gone…because as soon as the wealth, fame, or fun is gone…so will those “friends” you had. Your alone, pathetic, and miserable…

But oh hey! There is all that precious money of yours still…maybe anyway…so how much does that green paper have meaning now?

Not as much huh?

What is the point of this?

Nothing really…
I’m just trying to get across in my own of saying that there is nothing of or from this that will feel our needs.

Think About It.

2 weeks since…

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819 days
by in Life, Love

…I have . Ughhhh…I’m …it kinda gets hard to remember to :/

Anyway, whats really happened? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING….

OH…OH…wait…I lied…I GOTSTA SEE ME -O!!!! :] that made my week…and month .
Pics here :}
Myspace – Facebook

Oook…so as you can see…it made me very haha…and yeah…from then to now…really nothing major has happened would care to even know .

Oh, but you know what is in a few days? My oldest bro ’s Wedding Ceremony!!! :D …I’m in it too! :D Oooh! I also get to see Madison again at it!!! :D That will this week…and month prob too ;]

, so…that’s all I really have to share I can think of really at the …

Sorry. ;D

Ehh, Ahh, and Ooh.

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830 days
by in Computers, Life, Love

So, today was kinda …

I woke up like always to the voice of my beautiful Madison on the phone, then I fell back to sleep :|
After that I didn’t wake up till 1pm. Yeah, I know….you foresaw it with how late my last was eh?

Well then after I woke up I got to talk to my a little on IM while she was at school (Yes, when she’s not busy, not when she’s supposed to be doing school :P ) then when she had to go I did nothing till she was out of school…well..something happened…but I rather not discuss it here online…or even in any ….

But anyway, took a shower around 4pm, and soon as I was out…MY MADISON CALLED! :] — Yes I’m aware I get like a giddy 5yr old boy who just got a lollipop given to him when it’s about Madison…and no, I don’t regret it at all :] She makes me so and bubbly :]

Anyway, talked to her up until round 5:30pm when she had to leave to go to the Haunted House her school is throwing this week…and I left at 6pm for anyways…we went up there to fill bags of candy for kids, to hand out this week….but we also got cheese bread and a pizza! WHOO!!! :]

Then at around 8:45pm my love called me while she was on a break with a friend at sonic getting a snack, and had to go soon after :/

So, when I got home at around 9pm I got on the …WOO!!! Haha…And I played Fallout 3 some more (I didn’t even realize that 3 more expansions came out…so I dug out my game and reinstalled it :D ), and then decided to get Borderlands…so I did…and OOOH…I like so far….I didn’t get to play long…I got my character to level 2 and that’s it…because Madison called and told me to do homework :O haha.

Then we talked for a bit till she needed to head to bed, So I finished up my homework, then headed back on here to check my email and stuffs one last , and ended up downloading some windows 7 updates, avg updates, and going a quick disk defrag with the awesome Auslogics Disk Defrag :]

Finally, after all of that I got on here to blog….and that’s been my ! :D

Oh, and I’m part of a new site now called Dailybooth and I forgot to even say, or add it…so I’ll add it to my links list to the . :]

U2 WAS AMAZING! :] Oh, And The Rest of My Week.

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837 days
by in Drums, Life, Love, Movies, Music

So, I haven’t in awhile…sorry :O

Well, so…

Saturday: Did some last minute packing for Oklahoma trip…ate, talked on the phone some…then around 5pm we headed out…many songs and silliness-ness later…we arrived in Ada, OK where my sister Amber lives at about 7:30pm’ish?
We unpacked the musical gear from the truck…then headed to Blue Moon Cafe…which, is where this was taken of :D
Then we headed to the church to practice…Josh, Jessie, Amber, Michael (her husband), and I played for my sister’s church on sunday morning ;]
After about 2hrs we were done learning about 6 songs…most of which were new to Amber and Michael…and 1 was new to us all except Josh, who wrote it…and writes most of what we play…we being aka. Josh, Jessie, Chris(who couldn’t come) and I…
And jeez…my hands we’re literally about to bleed and we’re blistered…and ripped in 3 places…because they have their drums in a box thing…so you have to beat the heck out of them to get dynamics :/
After that we headed to Michael’s dad Mickey’s house, and unpacked…that is where we slept :D
And I talked to my till about 4:30am that …long story…..and to you Madison…thank you, and I believe and accept it now…hopefully over I’ll learn to trust in it more and make use to it like you have my love….

Sunday: Woke up about 9am…got ready, and headed to Life Community Church to play :]
After church, we headed to Rib Crib (delllicious :]), and this is where I took a pic of my hands seen here…this picture doesnt do them justice to how bad it was sadly :/
after that we went back to Pastor Mickey’s house and changed…then around 4pm we headed over to Amber’s house…then at around 4:30pm we headed out to Norman, OK….To see U2 :D :D :D
got there, got inside, found our seats…and at around 7pm Black Eyed Peas started…They were good…but dude with the mo-hawk cannot sing worth a crap live…but My Humps, , I Gotta Feeling, and Big Girls Don’t Cry was still awesome live though :] Will-i-am and Fergie are still awesome sounding live :]
Then at around 8:45pm U2 started :] EEE!:D…..and LORD GOD JESUS…I had a Concertgasm :D Like seriously…it’s gonna be hard to enjoy any concert now…I mean think about it…I’ve seen the best one in every way…so now everything else will fall short in all but prob one or two areas hah. Vids here. Pics here or here
Then after the amazing show (we got out at about 12:20am) we drove home…got home around 2am because of the crazy traffic…and headed to bed.

Monday: didn’t wake up till around 1pm haha…then we woke up, went to Amber’s house for a bit….went and ate at Braum’s…then went back to the church loaded up our gear, then went to Amber’s house again…and chilled there till around 3:20pm when we headed out…
Got home at around 5:20pm…then I talked on the phone till around 1am. and went to bed.

Tuesday: What did I do tuesday? not alot haha…Talked on the phone, worked on random Gfx, uploaded videos and pictures…and oh, stayed up till 5am fixing the church’s pc…I fixed it at around 10pm…it was a bad PSU…and I happened to have a spare one from eariler…and fixed it…then I got off of it we could use (Dad bought it from another church that was shutting down, and selling off their stuff for $100)…
Then reformatted it, and installed a fresh new install of Windows XP – Vortex 3G RED Edition, then loaded it with software we need like MediaShout, WinDVD, K-Lite Codec Pack…etc and other software you need really like Auslogics BoostSpeed, CCleaner, Filezilla…etc :D
After doing all that, upgrades, fixing random stuff like missing audio and drivers, and cleaning off un-needed hardware…it was around 5am :|

Wednesday: Today? not alot…talked on the phone with Madison alot, done homework, messed with stuff on the pc, talked on the phone some more…chatted with some old friends I haven’t in a long while on Facebook (Hi Sparky! :D ), and then started this.

So that has been my weekend /week. :]

Madison.

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843 days
by in Life, Love

Well, not too much happened today, I slept in pretty late (well besides being woke up to that dog barking his head off non-stop at 8am :| )

But I kinda want to take this to talk about my love, Madison.

As I’ve mentioned before, me and Madison met at Assembly of God church camp this year in late of 2009…we saw each for the first , at two different times…and even from then I sensed something different…something intrigued me about her…I didn’t know what…but I wanted to find out…

So, that night we ended up getting placed on the same team(that’s funny considering of the tons of kids…we got on the same team) and got to know each other…We talked a little here and there…and I just felt that feeling grow…and I liked it…but it confused me…because it felt familiar…but completely new at the same time…and at that time I didn’t know what it was…which if you don’t know now…you will soon enough.

So, at the next lunch thing, I saw her about half across the room…and we made silly hand gestures and faces back and forth…then I went to do something else, after not doing so in a while…and she was gone…and my heart sulked…and I didn’t really understand why…I mean I knew why…because I was kinda afraid that would be the last time I saw her…but I didn’t understand why I felt like that for someone I verily knew…

But me and a friend named Nate left, and I saw her sitting on the brick sidewalk thing…so we approached her…and proceeded to make smalltalk, talking about from shoes, to the huge balloon making noise behind us. But I liked and enjoyed it, and enjoyed learning even the smallest things about her, and her traits, and her habits. She intrigued me so much…and I didn’t know why.

So, from then on Me, Madison, Nate, and later the next day Lacey, all hung out for the remainder of camp…

But before I get ahead of myself…I want to keep going about us…

that following night we went to the main night service in the sanctuary…and during one part of it…Madison grabbed me, and Nate’s hand…and we went to the altar…where we prayed, and was prayed over…but then we sat down…and basically shared our deepest and darkest secrets with one another…and my heart poured out to them both…but especially Madison…once again…I felt that feeling…but mixed with compassion and hurt that was done to her…and I wanted to hug and kiss her and tell her its all going to be better…and I had to stop myself before I did…and I thought it was strange I felt that strongly for someones within a few days of knowing them.

Then next day, about mid day…something happened with me and my ex…who was there…fun I know…and pretty much tried to kick me to the dirt, then kick me again…and I took it…and didn’t to hurt her or retaliate. But later…after she left…it was just the 4 of us…and we talked about it some…and I remember Madison nicknamed her “” and told me I didn’t deserve being treated like that at all. and then the announcement came over the speaker that we had to go to our dorms to do devotionals…and that’s when me and Madison hugged…then she leaned in and kissed me. And I know it was a kiss of “Its going to be better ”. But I couldnt help but feel all bubbly…and different…very different…and I didnt understand it…even telling myself “No…no…it couldn’t be that…I’ve only known her a few days?!”.

So, once we we’re done with that..and met back up with the girls…I acted a bit differently…scared of doing anything under the false pretense of her just giving that kiss as nothing more then a sentimental “It’s going to be okay” and scare, or anger her. But I couldn’t help myself…and eventually I kissed her again, and again, and again. And it felt so….right…which logically made not one bit of sense in my head…at all. I was thinking “No, you’ve known her a few days, you love her, and even if so, why would she want to love or be with someone like you? shes way out of your league, and so much a better person then you.” Yes, I know I’m hard on myself lol. But that is how I thought….

But I couldn’t resist being near her, holding her, hugging her, and kissing her…it felt so familiar, so warm, so loving…but yet…so new…so refreshing…so…right.

So, before the evening service we we’re sitting down talking…and she had drew a heart on my hand….and it said “I <3 you”…literally a “<3″ not “love” ….and I held up my hand and said “Me too”…but she wouldn’t let me get away with just that …she said “What do you mean?”…and I did it again…and she said something like “That’s not what I meant…what do you mean…I want to hear it” basically is what she meant…so…even though logically, I knew I shouldn’t be able to fall in love with someone in less then a week…I did…and I know I did…but I was afraid to say it…afraid of her not feeling the same…or of it being a “camp-fling” or the likes….but I pushed away the trying to tell me it cant be…that’s only in movies….and I told her…I said “I love you”…and she said “I love you too Andrew”……and the next question relieved, but scared me…she asked “Do you want it to end at camp?”…I said “No, no I don’t….at all”…and she said “Neither do I” and smiled…and rubbed her hand against mine. :] So from then on we we’re I guess “officially” dating :]

And it was hard those few weeks after camp only talking on the phone…and it still can be…see, she lives 1 12hrs away in jacksboro :/ ….but once I got to see her outside of camp…and it was the same warm smile…the same loving, eager eyes to see me…I felt in shock in a way…because somehow…someway…she looked even more beautiful then I remembered…somehow…and I remembered her being the most beautiful thing as it was…but from that second…I knew it was love…and I knew…it was…for real.

And this happened and happens every time I see her again. It’s like I’m looking at an angel…even more beautiful then the last one somehow….with those same loving, warm eyes…and those compassionate (and delicious) lips :]

So everytime I talk to her, I get to know her more, get to hear her stories, and her mine…and I get to love her more every day…but when I see her…oh…It’s not just that…everytime I see her….I see the purpose of , what it feels like to be loved more then you, or anyone else can love you, what it feels like to enjoy hearing her voice, seeing her eyes, her smile, her love. And to know that it is towards you, and that you are loved by her….it is truly breath taking…and a beautiful thing to have…inside and out…

Just like my love…beautiful inside and out…

Just like…my Madison. *kiss*

Little late…but it’s for a reason.

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843 days
by in Life, Love

Hello all, and sorry its so late…well for me making this anyway (currently 3:24am CST)

Well first off, went to classes, and they went well :] got to talk to some classmates, who are new friends I’m slowing making (hopefully) haha…

Had to sit in traffic for 1 12hrs though on the home…there was a nasty 4 car wreck on Lake Lewisville bridge :| fun, no?

Then I got home, talked to my , (sorry, you’re still feeling sick dear :/ ), and checked my email….and you know what I had in the inbox?

– for infomercial!

It was a notification of payment from Pickydomains.com, whom I joined as a contributor recently, and within the first day I had someone pick one of my suggestions for a domain. :]

So check it out if you want! It’s legit, fast, and easy to make a quick buck ($25 per picked domain) if your creative making a domain name (and well after you check to make sure its not that is…I use GoDaddy.com domain search to do so) :]

– end infomercial :D

and yeah, rest of day was mostly spent on the phone with Madison….up until around 7pm when my sissy , who lives in got here! :] Then we ate supper, watched (I <3 it), and then around 10pm Madisono called me back…and that’s all I did…up till 12:10l 12:10
English: World English Bible - WEB
10  who speaks a word against the Son of Man will be forgiven, but those who blaspheme against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven.

WP-Bible pluginam….that’s when we got a call from , my sis-in-law, that my oldest bro was sick, and couldn’t hold anything down, so he was constantly puking :/

So, we went over to their house to watch their kids, while she took him to the emergency room…and we did so, all of us, except Josh…and we was there up till about 2:40am…when they got back…apparently Brandon has Influenza…not Swine …but still bad Influenza :/

Then we headed home, grabbed some hot chocolate and goodies at RaceTrac in Denton…then I got on here and started :]

Fun day, eh?

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