Posts tagged Love
Sins.
1Severed tears, broken glass, lost loves, it never asked.
Sick nights, bright lights, silly kids, enjoy it while it lasts.
Silver suns, black skies, death and decay, that is what enclasps.
Empty sex, filled lungs, dirty needles, lips, and tongues.
Bloody wrists, broken hearts, needless hurt, is this all we’re worth?
Nevermore I say we should be this way.
Nevermore I pray we stay this way.
With this the pain, hurt, and death, we will defeat.
Semper Fidelis
0In translation from Latin, it means “Always Faithful”. On the back of someones car, it got me thinking…who among us can truly use this anymore? Sure it’s referring to the Marines. But I mean in a daily walk of life, who can use this? Me? You?…
I don’t know, life has been shooting me in the face this last month… Not just this and that… just everything; the point, the flow, the love, the reason, the peace, the hate. Just everything… I’ve felt so disconnected to the real world here lately…no reason to… just have been… I’ve been slowly reconnecting, especially with help from loved ones. But still, it’s just like taking everything in, its hard not to… to think of earth as a small dot in the works of everything. To think of work, play, sleep, and all the in-between.
I cant help it, I cant stop it. All I can do is try and rejoin the rest of you living your daily lives among another, while I feel like I’m observing ants in a ant habitat. Going about your daily life, all connected to one another without even realizing it really…but still all connected to each other. But I’m not, I am some kind of observer in the distance, commingling amidst you, and putting on a smile like I am part of you, but in reality only half of me is…only part of my spirit is, the rest is in a different world, a different everything. No one knows but me, and my God above…and most likely all but a handfull will ever know.
What can I do? nothing, ever. I have to live the rest of my human life in this meatsack of sin until the day my flesh dies and rots, maggot infested in the ground below, it almost is like the sin catches up with the body through the decay of the maggots…if you think about it that is what sin is coming out of our lives, life decaying maggots harvesting on our souls, much like they do our bodies once we die.
I’m stuck, I’m afraid, I’m slipping away… I’m tired, I’m scratching at the walls trying to hold on, I’m…I’m ready to feel at home again…reconnected, warm, at touch with my soul. Instead I am at war with myself, my will, and my heart. Because that is all I can do, and it cannot ever end… This, is my blessing and curse. To have this war. To have this disconnection. To have what I have, be who I am, and become what I will.
Is it worth it? Yes.
Does it always feel like it? No, rarely ever does.
Is this fair, you ask? Really, the answer is up to the eye of the beholder. To me, yes, it is for reasons noone would understand but me. But alas, I still have to bear it with passion, with pride, and with honor till the day I die.
Only me, myself, and God. But I know one thing…I have, and shall always be Semper Fidelis to it all.
*Purr*
2OMGITSBEENSOLONG.
So, in short?
Had amazing times with Madison which I’d love to go into detail about each one…but I will say we are growing closer than before… we might have our moments… but when it comes down to it… I love that woman whole-heartedly and endlessly, and cannot wait to marry her :] I love you Madison. Time, trials, and tribulations might come our way… But I’m in this for the long run… and that is not ever changing, my love.
Anyway, had an amazing concert in a school cafeteria with The Joshua Band…ahhh…it felt so nice to play somewhere like that and have such an amazing show, word, and altar call (over 50 kids got saved/rededicated).
I have rekindled my love for tinkering (soldering to fix stuff, build stuff, or change stuff…messing with pcs, building pcs..etc)…and in doing so I have made it once again harder to choose my career path 
I have began to make/already made new close friends…and I know they’ll prob be life friends…and realized some that I lost…that I wish I didn’t. And I will continue to miss them until I rekindle or close that relationship that I severed. 
I still don’t have a job.
I am getting near graduation…May 22nd!
I am still–if not more–insane/crazy/random.
I really don’t know what else that there is to say of importance atm… prob will have forgotten something big and have to make a new one…but oh well haha.
Hatred ever kills, love never dies; such is the vast difference between the two.
What is obtained by love is retained for all time. What is obtained by hatred proves
a burden in reality for it increases hatred. – Ghandi
Inexplicable
0Intriguing isn’t it?
Life…that is.
It gives, it takes.
It heals, it hurts.
It loves, it hates.
It fills, it nulls.
But, in all of that…why does it happen? Why both? Who defined why getting slapped hurts, and getting kissed feels good?
who is to say we are freaks…living life out unintended of how it should be?
Example: Jenny walks down the street and stubs her toe…it hurts…later on, she gets kissed on the cheek by a boy she likes.
What defined our brain to take in that your toe suddenly hurts instead of it feeling good?…or that you like how it feels when another person’s skin is against yours…and that it shouldn’t hurt?
It’s funny to me how many people don’t question things like this…they just find it useless, or pointless…because no one has the answer, and they just go on with life never questioning even the most simplest of things…
Like why when we meet someone, we find it courteous to shake their hand or nod….who defined that? why?…why would grabbing and holding on to an appendage of a stranger seem like a great way of showing hospitality? seriously?….Or that when we kneel its a sign of submittance, I mean why would sitting higher then another being show you are the superior? When in fact its easier to overthrow or kill someone from a lower stance in all honesty…increase stability, access to vulnerable organs…along with other things.
No, there is no point or reason, or really even debate of this letter I write…
I’m just proving the point that we kinda just forget to question everything in whole…even little things we just learn to accept are reality and not, and what is and has always been…we treat it as it is this untouchable knowledge that will get us killed asking. Why? Search me…I just wanting to bring it to attention that we take advantage of everything a bit too much…and get way too comfortable.
I mean if someone from birth was told that eating a apple would kill him…I would be willing to bet that after 20+ years…if he ate a apple…he would die…Why? because we put so much faith and trust in these things we “know are true” to the point of it being dangerous…we make boundaries on life, and other things.
No, im not saying if you told a boy from birth he could fly he could…least…I really don’t think he would…who knows hah. God has the power to make it happen if he wanted.
We forget that…God is, well….God…
he doesn’t change anything because he made a covenant with us…and he is true to his word…so he doesn’t go changing the very fabric of space and time, or decide we breathe dirt and drink toxic radiation overnight….
But…if he wanted to….he could…you say, “well it would be impossible to breathe dirt, our bodies can’t func…oh”….what? what was that?…forgetting who designed our bodies in the first place?…
“But we cant breathe dirt…its solid matter and air isn’t”…well who defined what is and isn’t solid…or what solid even is?…God could decide everything solid is liquid, and liquid is solid….or make a whole new type of substance then the few we have….
We really forget his power and ability…because we’re so used to and have gotten comfortable with everything because its “always been this way”…It’s sad to me how much we forget about the bigger picture…even in the small things.
Life, Emotion, Actions, Rules….etc
All put in to play by God…who defined exactly what each is.
So, I guess there is a point to this letter….
Never forget the true power and importance of everything…and stop just living life without questioning the very fabrics of space and time…big or small…it’s important, and its made for a reason….
But just because it has always been this way…or so we are told…doesn’t mean we should forget that it is changeable…and that it isn’t just “set in stone”.
I’ll be honest…I came into this letter with just one word…Inexplicable…and this is what happened…good or bad…pointless or life-changing.
But I guess now I have a letter to go with the word hah.
Such a ironic sentence no? Anyway, just finish up knowing this…if nothing else…question it all…all of it…and never just settle for what you’ve been told…or what you assume or know has always been this way…to me, it’s a waste of time, and life to go without questioning….
And it is also a waste…to go on with life without knowing that true power of God….the true power of everything.
That it truly is….
Inexplicable.
Death.
4It scares everyone. It surprises us all. It sneaks up on us or someone we love off guard. And there is nothing you can do to stop it.
Scary thought, no?
If it isn’t then you are one of the rare few that have no fear of death. But what exactly, is death? And what, if anything, is after?
The definition of death states “Death: a permanent cessation of all vital bodily functions - the end of life”
But is this true? Is it the end? As soon as your body is dead..is that really, truly “the end of life”?
To most, no, it is not the end. It is only the beginning of something better, or worse…
For an example, let’s try some common religions.
Buddhist: Buddhists maintain that rebirth takes place without an unchanging self or soul passing from one form to another. The type of rebirth will be conditioned by the moral tone of the person’s actions (karma). For example, where a person has committed harmful actions of body, speech and mind based on greed, hatred and delusion, rebirth in a lower realm, i.e. an animal, a ghost or a hell realm, is to be expected. On the other hand, where a person has performed skillful actions based on generosity, loving-kindness (metta), compassion and wisdom, rebirth in a happy realm, i.e. human or one of the many heavenly realms, can be expected.
Islam: Islam teaches that the purpose of man’s creation is essentially to be kind to other human beings and to worship the Creator of the Heavens and Earth – Allah. Islam teaches that life lived on this Earth is a test for man to determine each individual’s ultimate reward or punishment in the afterlife, which is eternal and everlasting.
Christianity: Christian beliefs about the afterlife vary between denominations and individual Christians, but the vast majority of Christians believe in some kind of heaven, in which believers enjoy the presence of God and other believers and freedom from suffering and sin. One belief says that God, in His own time and in His own way, will bring the world to its appropriate end. According to His promise, Jesus Christ will return personally and visibly in glory to the earth; the dead will be raised; and Christ will judge all men in righteousness. The unrighteous will be consigned to Hell, the place of everlasting punishment. The righteous in their resurrected and glorified bodies will receive their reward and will dwell forever in Heaven with the Lord.
Atheist(or the lack of religion): One famous and well known Atheist named John Leslie states that ” Each of us, is immortal because our life patterns are but an aspect of an “existentially unified” cosmos that will persist after our death. The soul, consists of information, not matter. And one of the deepest principles of quantum theory, called “unitarity,” forbids the disappearance of information.”
“What good is this doing me, now I’m freaking confused…thanks Andrew.”
I’m getting to my point…stop being impatient.
So which should you believe? That’s not my decision.
But what do I recommend? I recommend that whatever you believe in, you really make sure whats going on, and you’re sure its the truth.
For me? Well I believe in Christianity.
That Jesus Christ was a immaculate conception from the virgin girl named Mary, and that Jesus is the Son of God. I also believe in the Gifts of the Spirit.
That sin is sin, we are all born into a fleshly body that naturally wants to sin, but that you need but only accept Christ into your heart, and he’s there with loving arms for as long as you keep a committed relationship with him.
That you try to live the best, sinless life you can, but that everyone is human and we make a mistake, but Jesus will always be there waiting with His hand out to pick you up and accept you just the same.
That you can only make it into Heaven through His name, Jesus Christ, because he, and he alone shed His own blood on the cross for all of our sins we ever have committed, are committing, and will commit, and that if you choose to deny him as your Lord and God, and blaspheme His name, that he says “But since you are lukewarm and not hot or cold, and I will spew you from my mouth.”.
But, again, this is only for those who choose to live a life full of sin, and not repent for their wrong doings, and accept Jesus’ free gift of forgiveness and love, that is always available.
And that in the end days, Revelation will take place, and that a judgment will befall the world for its unrepentant, perverse wickedness, and blasphemy.
And after that we will reign in heaven for 1000 years until God creates a New Heaven, and a New Earth for us all.
Did I always believe the above?
No. I found out after much studying of many religions and beliefs, that this is the one I know is true.
And does that mean that I’ll never question any of it again?
No. I’m too much of a thinker.
So does that mean I’m not sure what I believe in then?
Again, no. I just question everything.
I cant force you to believe what I do, and I’m not trying and I’m not going to try to.
But I will tell you this, I didn’t just believe what my parents did, I didn’t just believe what is the easiest thing to go by or to get away with the most stuff (obviously). But after awhile I knew that this was it, and that it was so much better then all the rest. That having a intimate relationship with a almighty and never-ending being was alot better then believing in dead gods/gods that never speak back to you, or that we are nothing at all, but matter.
So, main point?
Really take the time to sit down and ask questions about your beliefs, why you believe them, and what it means and does for you, especially after your body ceases to function and you are at “a permanent cessation of all vital bodily functions - the end of life”. It’s alot more important then you probably thought it was before this blog. hopefully anyway.
Meaning.
0The Point of it all…
What is the point of it all? Really, think about that question truly and wholly, and you’ll find its hard to answer…why?
Want an example?
If you told me “the point of it all is to get as rich as you can and live your life to the fullest”…
I’d ask you the simple question “why?” whoa…didn’t think about that one much did you?
What I mean is sure…it’s nice to have money, and in turn nice things and able to do a lot of stuff…but why do it? Why go out and work your end off, to have finally by the time you are in your late 20’s – early 40’s to have hopefully made a good sum of money. Just to spend on things that will be useless soon, breakdown, digress in fun, and pretty much be useless to you once you’re dead.
Oh, okay, you didn’t mean make money for stuff…you meant a lot of money to go out, party, get drunk/high, and have a night full of wild sex with a hottie from a club…right? Again I would ask “why?”
First off, you can only party so long and all it’s doing is making you tired and sweaty.
Secondly, getting drunk only lasts so long, and doing more will kill you…and getting high on a drug will only do so much for you, and get you addicted, and either…luckily kill you, or even worse make you lose all your wealth on this addiction you made, and be living on nothing, having to give blowjobs to a perverse fat man named “Pete” to get a gram or two of your drug of choice….
Oh, but I left out all those hottie’s in the club you get to have all that crazy/wild sex with…right?
No, that’s next.
Sex only fills a need (yes a very good feeling need) for so long, until you have to stop.
And you know what? Just having sex is useless….
I plan on it…
Ok, so you take a hot, young woman home, do your thing, and she leaves that night or the following morning…then what?…you do it again with someone else….and someone else…and someone else…and…oh…you’re too old…now the hotties think you look like a old pervert…
And you know what? Now you have two options…Hire hookers, or actually try to date someone.
But you know what that does? By the time you are done “Having fun, being single, and living like a king” all the girls even worth marrying are taken, or are not interested in someone who has done every girl he has came in contact with.
So you end up alone, and with a empty place in your home, and your heart…and you’ll realize that instead of partying, getting quick fixes, and having sex with alot of random women, you should have given a crap about one of them, or another girl.
Because guess what? Good job…your life of “partying” didn’t pay off well in the end…you’re alone…or still filling it with quick fixes, stuck with a girl you got pregnant you don’t love, or you have to use your money to get another fill of happiness in the form of booze, drugs, or sex.
And you realize something…you just screwed up ad wasted your whole life on petty useless things…all those “stories” you were able to tell friends are gone…because as soon as the wealth, fame, or fun is gone…so will those “friends” you had. Your alone, pathetic, and miserable…
But oh hey! There is all that precious money of yours still…maybe anyway…so how much does that green paper have meaning now?
Not as much huh?What is the point of this?
Nothing really…
I’m just trying to get across in my own way of saying that there is nothing of or from this world that will feel our needs.
Think About It.
Ehh, Ahh, and Ooh.
1So, today was kinda meh…
I woke up like always to the voice of my beautiful Madison on the phone, then I fell back to sleep
After that I didn’t wake up till 1pm. Yeah, I know….you foresaw it with how late my last blog was eh?
Well then after I woke up I got to talk to my love a little on IM while she was at school (Yes, when she’s not busy, not when she’s supposed to be doing school 
) then when she had to go I did nothing till she was out of school…well..something happened…but I rather not discuss it here online…or even in any other way….
But anyway, took a shower around 4pm, and soon as I was out…MY MADISON CALLED! :] — Yes I’m aware I get like a giddy 5yr old boy who just got a lollipop given to him when it’s about Madison…and no, I don’t regret it at all :] She makes me so happy and bubbly :]
Anyway, talked to her up until round 5:30pm when she had to leave to go to the Haunted House her school is throwing this week…and I left at 6pm for church anyways…we went up there to fill bags of candy for kids, to hand out this week….but we also got cheese bread and a pizza! WHOO!!! :]
Then at around 8:45pm my love called me while she was on a break with a friend at sonic getting a snack, and had to go soon after
So, when I got home at around 9pm I got on the PC…WOO!!! Haha…And I played Fallout 3 some more (I didn’t even realize that 3 more expansions came out…so I dug out my game and reinstalled it 
), and then decided to get Borderlands…so I did…and OOOH…I like so far….I didn’t get to play long…I got my character to level 2 and that’s it…because Madison called and told me to do homework 
haha.
Then we talked for a bit till she needed to head to bed, So I finished up my homework, then headed back on here to check my email and stuffs one last time, and ended up downloading some windows 7 updates, avg updates, and going a quick disk defrag with the awesome Auslogics Disk Defrag :]
Finally, after all of that I got on here to blog….and that’s been my day!
Oh, and I’m part of a new site now called Dailybooth and I forgot to even say, or add it…so I’ll add it to my links list to the right. :]
U2 WAS AMAZING! :] Oh, And The Rest of My Week.
3So, I haven’t blogged in awhile…sorry
Well, so…
Saturday: Did some last minute packing for Oklahoma trip…ate, talked on the phone some…then around 5pm we headed out…many songs and silliness-ness later…we arrived in Ada, OK where my sister Amber lives at about 7:30pm’ish?
We unpacked the musical gear from the truck…then headed to Blue Moon Cafe…which, is where this was taken of Jessie
Then we headed to the church to practice…Josh, Jessie, Amber, Michael (her husband), and I played for my sister’s church on sunday morning ;]
After about 2hrs we were done learning about 6 songs…most of which were new to Amber and Michael…and 1 was new to us all except Josh, who wrote it…and writes most of what we play…we being The Joshua Band aka. Josh, Jessie, Chris(who couldn’t come) and I…
And jeez…my hands we’re literally about to bleed and we’re blistered…and ripped in 3 places…because they have their drums in a box thing…so you have to beat the heck out of them to get dynamics
After that we headed to Michael’s dad Mickey’s house, and unpacked…that is where we slept
And I talked to my Madison till about 4:30am that night…long story…..and to you Madison…thank you, and I believe and accept it now…hopefully over time I’ll learn to trust in it more and make use to it like you have my love….
Sunday: Woke up about 9am…got ready, and headed to Life Community Church to play :]
After church, we headed to Rib Crib (delllicious :]), and this is where I took a pic of my hands seen here…this picture doesnt do them justice to how bad it was sadly
after that we went back to Pastor Mickey’s house and changed…then around 4pm we headed over to Amber’s house…then at around 4:30pm we headed out to Norman, OK….To see U2
got there, got inside, found our seats…and at around 7pm Black Eyed Peas started…They were good…but dude with the mo-hawk cannot sing worth a crap live…but My Humps, Boom Boom Pow, I Gotta Feeling, and Big Girls Don’t Cry was still awesome live though :] Will-i-am and Fergie are still awesome sounding live :]
Then at around 8:45pm U2 started :] EEE!:D…..and LORD GOD JESUS…I had a Concertgasm Like seriously…it’s gonna be hard to enjoy any other concert now…I mean think about it…I’ve seen the best one in every way…so now everything else will fall short in all but prob one or two areas hah. Vids here. Pics here or here
Then after the amazing show (we got out at about 12:20am) we drove home…got home around 2am because of the crazy traffic…and headed to bed.
Monday: didn’t wake up till around 1pm haha…then we woke up, went to Amber’s house for a bit….went and ate at Braum’s…then went back to the church loaded up our gear, then went to Amber’s house again…and chilled there till around 3:20pm when we headed out…
Got home at around 5:20pm…then I talked on the phone till around 1am. and went to bed.
Tuesday: What did I do tuesday? not alot haha…Talked on the phone, worked on random Gfx, uploaded U2 videos and pictures…and oh, stayed up till 5am fixing the church’s pc…I fixed it at around 10pm…it was a bad PSU…and I happened to have a spare one from eariler…and fixed it…then I got anything off of it we could use (Dad bought it from another church that was shutting down, and selling off their stuff for $100)…
Then reformatted it, and installed a fresh new install of Windows XP – Vortex 3G RED Edition, then loaded it with software we need like MediaShout, WinDVD, K-Lite Codec Pack…etc and other software you need really like Auslogics BoostSpeed, CCleaner, Filezilla…etc
After doing all that, upgrades, fixing random stuff like missing audio and ethernet drivers, and cleaning off un-needed hardware…it was around 5am
Wednesday: Today? not alot…talked on the phone with Madison alot, done homework, messed with stuff on the pc, talked on the phone some more…chatted with some old friends I haven’t in a long while on Facebook (Hi Sparky! ), and then started this.
So that has been my weekend /week. :]
Madison.
4Well, not too much happened today, I slept in pretty late (well besides being woke up to that dog barking his head off non-stop at 8am )
But I kinda want to take this blog to talk about my love, Madison.
As I’ve mentioned before, me and Madison met at Assembly of God church camp this year in late June of 2009…we saw each other for the first time, at two different times…and even from then I sensed something different…something intrigued me about her…I didn’t know what…but I wanted to find out…
So, that night we ended up getting placed on the same team(that’s funny considering of the tons of kids…we got on the same team) and got to know each other…We talked a little here and there…and I just felt that feeling grow…and I liked it…but it confused me…because it felt familiar…but completely new at the same time…and at that time I didn’t know what it was…which if you don’t know now…you will soon enough.
So, at the next lunch thing, I saw her about half way across the room…and we made silly hand gestures and faces back and forth…then I went to do something else, after not doing so in a while…and she was gone…and my heart sulked…and I didn’t really understand why…I mean I knew why…because I was kinda afraid that would be the last time I saw her…but I didn’t understand why I felt like that for someone I verily knew…
But me and a friend named Nate left, and I saw her sitting on the brick sidewalk thing…so we approached her…and proceeded to make smalltalk, talking about everything from shoes, to the huge balloon making noise behind us. But I liked and enjoyed it, and enjoyed learning even the smallest things about her, and her traits, and her habits. She intrigued me so much…and I didn’t know why.
So, from then on Me, Madison, Nate, and later the next day Lacey, all hung out for the remainder of camp…
But before I get ahead of myself…I want to keep going about us…
that following night we went to the main night service in the sanctuary…and during one part of it…Madison grabbed me, and Nate’s hand…and we went to the altar…where we prayed, and was prayed over…but then we sat down…and basically shared our deepest and darkest secrets with one another…and my heart poured out to them both…but especially Madison…once again…I felt that feeling…but mixed with compassion and hurt that was done to her…and I wanted to hug and kiss her and tell her its all going to be better…and I had to stop myself before I did…and I thought it was strange I felt that strongly for someones pain within a few days of knowing them.
Then next day, about mid day…something happened with me and my ex…who was there…fun I know…and pretty much tried to kick me to the dirt, then kick me again…and I took it…and didn’t try to hurt her or retaliate. But later…after she left…it was just the 4 of us…and we talked about it some…and I remember Madison nicknamed her “The Dragon Lady” and told me I didn’t deserve being treated like that at all. and then the announcement came over the speaker that we had to go to our dorms to do devotionals…and that’s when me and Madison hugged…then she leaned in and kissed me. And I know it was a kiss of “Its going to be better Andrew”. But I couldnt help but feel all bubbly…and different…very different…and I didnt understand it…even telling myself “No…no…it couldn’t be that…I’ve only known her a few days?!”.
So, once we we’re done with that..and met back up with the girls…I acted a bit differently…scared of doing anything under the false pretense of her just giving that kiss as nothing more then a sentimental “It’s going to be okay” and scare, or anger her. But I couldn’t help myself…and eventually I kissed her again, and again, and again. And it felt so….right…which logically made not one bit of sense in my head…at all. I was thinking “No, you’ve known her a few days, you cant love her, and even if so, why would she want to love or be with someone like you? shes way out of your league, and so much a better person then you.” Yes, I know I’m hard on myself lol. But that is how I thought….
But I couldn’t resist being near her, holding her, hugging her, and kissing her…it felt so familiar, so warm, so loving…but yet…so new…so refreshing…so…right.
So, before the evening service we we’re sitting down talking…and she had drew a heart on my hand….and it said “I <3 you”…literally a “<3″ not “love” haha….and I held up my hand and said “Me too”…but she wouldn’t let me get away with just that haha…she said “What do you mean?”…and I did it again…and she said something like “That’s not what I meant…what do you mean…I want to hear it” basically is what she meant…so…even though logically, I knew I shouldn’t be able to fall in love with someone in less then a week…I did…and I know I did…but I was afraid to say it…afraid of her not feeling the same…or of it being a “camp-fling” or the likes….but I pushed away the brain trying to tell me it cant be…that’s only in movies….and I told her…I said “I love you”…and she said “I love you too Andrew”……and the next question relieved, but scared me…she asked “Do you want it to end at camp?”…I said “No, no I don’t….at all”…and she said “Neither do I” and smiled…and rubbed her hand against mine. :] So from then on we we’re I guess “officially” dating :]
And it was hard those few weeks after camp only talking on the phone…and it still can be…see, she lives 1 1/2hrs away in jacksboro ….but once I got to see her outside of camp…and it was the same warm smile…the same loving, eager eyes to see me…I felt in shock in a way…because somehow…someway…she looked even more beautiful then I remembered…somehow…and I remembered her being the most beautiful thing as it was…but from that second…I knew it was love…and I knew…it was…for real.
And this happened and happens every time I see her again. It’s like I’m looking at an angel…even more beautiful then the last one somehow….with those same loving, warm eyes…and those compassionate (and delicious) lips :]
So everytime I talk to her, I get to know her more, get to hear her stories, and her mine…and I get to love her more every day…but when I see her…oh…It’s not just that…everytime I see her….I see the purpose of life, what it feels like to be loved more then you, or anyone else can love you, what it feels like to enjoy hearing her voice, seeing her eyes, her smile, her love. And to know that it is towards you, and that you are loved by her….it is truly breath taking…and a beautiful thing to have…inside and out…
Just like my love…beautiful inside and out…
Just like…my Madison. *kiss*
Little late…but it’s for a reason.
0Hello all, and sorry its so late…well for me making this anyway hah (currently 3:24am CST)
Well first off, went to classes, and they went well :] got to talk to some classmates, who are new friends I’m slowing making (hopefully) haha…
Had to sit in traffic for 1 1/2hrs though on the way home…there was a nasty 4 car wreck on Lake Lewisville bridge fun, no?
Then I got home, talked to my love, Madison (sorry, you’re still feeling sick dear ), and checked my email….and you know what I had in the inbox?
– time for infomercial!
It was a PayPal notification of payment from Pickydomains.com, whom I joined as a contributor recently, and within the first day I had someone pick one of my suggestions for a domain. :]
So check it out if you want! It’s legit, fast, and easy to make a quick buck ($25 per picked domain) if your creative making a domain name (and well after you check to make sure its not taken that is…I use GoDaddy.com domain search to do so) :]
– end infomercial
and yeah, rest of day was mostly spent on the phone with Madison….up until around 7pm when my sissy Amber, who lives in Oklahoma got here! :] Then we ate supper, watched Fringe(I 
it), and then around 10pm Madisono called me back…and that’s all I did…up till 12:10l 12:10
English: World English Bible - WEB
10 Everyone who speaks a word against the Son of Man will be forgiven, but those who blaspheme against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven.
WP-Bible pluginam….that’s when we got a call from Sarah, my sis-in-law, that Brandon my oldest bro was sick, and couldn’t hold anything down, so he was constantly puking
So, we went over to their house to watch their kids, while she took him to the emergency room…and we did so, all of us, except Josh…and we was there up till about 2:40am…when they got back…apparently Brandon has Influenza…not Swine Flu…but still bad Influenza
Then we headed home, grabbed some hot chocolate and goodies at RaceTrac in Denton…then I got on here and started blogging :]
Fun day, eh?