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Okay, so…It’s been awhile, and there is too much to really cover…so I’ll break this down as much as I can…

First off lets hit the “Relationship” category…so, me and Hattie went downhill fast…she did things already in the past that I had forgave her for, stuff that I didn’t deserve to even happen to me honestly, but I still stayed with her and things we’re looking okay for awhile.
Then, Wham! Things for us starting declining, we started arguing more, especially in the area of her thinking and accusing me of being unfaithful (which will never happen in my book. If I don’t love you, I’ll leave you. Not cheat on you.) when in reality she was again, and I didn’t know.
Anyway, A few weeks before the Assembly of God camp thing I was going to with a AoG church in Denton I go to Sunday nights(when I can) and Wednesdays named Grace Fellowship, She broke up with me.
But she still tried to lead me along and leave me to believe she still loved me, despite the fact she was already all over other men.
And then Saturday day before camp I went with my brother Brandon to meet up with his ex-wife Angelique to drop off his daughter Hailey for the week, and I started talking to him about everything going on…everything…and everything I told him she was doing and saying, he remembered that’s just how his ex-wife would do and/or say.
And it was an eye-opener…I wasn’t sure if I should try to wait and see if she would change or get better, because I tend to be too nice and do that.
Then we got to the meeting point and I got out and talked to Angelique a little…and I realized something. He was right, Hattie was my version of a Angelique in my life. But I had an opportunity to end it before we we’re married and I end up married, then divorced to her, and save some pain. My brother unfortunately did not have a chance to do that.
Anyway, that Monday when we were leaving for camp. When I saw her, I let her go completely…and she didn’t let go of me, and that night I met two new friends: Nathan, and Madison.
And instantly I felt a connection with Madison I’d never felt before. I didn’t know what it was, but I didnt want it to leave.
Anyway, over that week, Hattie continued to argue and try to tell me she loved me.
And the more time I spent with Madison, the more I found how much of a fool I was to have ever considered my past relationships “Love”. Because with her, within that week I felt the same, and above the level of compassion and feelings towards her then I did with my exes. So by a few days in we decided to start dating, and this made Hattie furious that she just lost this game of leading me on even though she wasn’t ready to be committed to just me, or really love me.
But, and hopefully this doesn’t sound too cold…but I could care less about Hattie at that point.
All I cared about was listening to Madison talk, and learn more about her, and just take in her beauty inside, and out.
And even though it was an unorthodox way to meet your love, it happened regardless. :] Love you baby *kiss*

psst. this is her :]

Alright! well that’s basically out of the way…basically hah.

Next up is “Life”! haha. So yeah, now I’m a senior in high school (woot), I’m madly in love, I’m getting better at drums practically every month I almost feel like (I’m seriously not trying to be cocky, but yeah.), and OH. I have my driver’s license now! WOO! But, I have no car.

Oh, and later this next week dad is going to help me put in applications at a few places so I can gets a job!

So, as you can see. the biggest chunk of catching up was my whole “Relationship” story hah. there is other stuff I’m prob not thinking of…but I don’t remember at this time…if I do, I’ll just edit this or make a new entry :]