Inexplicable
Jan 16th
Intriguing isn’t it?
Life…that is.
It gives, it takes.
It heals, it hurts.
It loves, it hates.
It fills, it nulls.
But, in all of that…why does it happen? Why both? Who defined why getting slapped hurts, and getting kissed feels good?
who is to say we are freaks…living life out unintended of how it should be?
Example: Jenny walks down the street and stubs her toe…it hurts…later on, she gets kissed on the cheek by a boy she likes.
What defined our brain to take in that your toe suddenly hurts instead of it feeling good?…or that you like how it feels when another person’s skin is against yours…and that it shouldn’t hurt?
It’s funny to me how many people don’t question things like this…they just find it useless, or pointless…because no one has the answer, and they just go on with life never questioning even the most simplest of things…
Like why when we meet someone, we find it courteous to shake their hand or nod….who defined that? why?…why would grabbing and holding on to an appendage of a stranger seem like a great way of showing hospitality? seriously?….Or that when we kneel its a sign of submittance, I mean why would sitting higher then another being show you are the superior? When in fact its easier to overthrow or kill someone from a lower stance in all honesty…increase stability, access to vulnerable organs…along with other things.
No, there is no point or reason, or really even debate of this letter I write…
I’m just proving the point that we kinda just forget to question everything in whole…even little things we just learn to accept are reality and not, and what is and has always been…we treat it as it is this untouchable knowledge that will get us killed asking. Why? Search me…I just wanting to bring it to attention that we take advantage of everything a bit too much…and get way too comfortable.
I mean if someone from birth was told that eating a apple would kill him…I would be willing to bet that after 20+ years…if he ate a apple…he would die…Why? because we put so much faith and trust in these things we “know are true” to the point of it being dangerous…we make boundaries on life, and other things.
No, im not saying if you told a boy from birth he could fly he could…least…I really don’t think he would…who knows hah. God has the power to make it happen if he wanted.
We forget that…God is, well….God…
he doesn’t change anything because he made a covenant with us…and he is true to his word…so he doesn’t go changing the very fabric of space and time, or decide we breathe dirt and drink toxic radiation overnight….
But…if he wanted to….he could…you say, “well it would be impossible to breathe dirt, our bodies can’t func…oh”….what? what was that?…forgetting who designed our bodies in the first place?…
“But we cant breathe dirt…its solid matter and air isn’t”…well who defined what is and isn’t solid…or what solid even is?…God could decide everything solid is liquid, and liquid is solid….or make a whole new type of substance then the few we have….
We really forget his power and ability…because we’re so used to and have gotten comfortable with everything because its “always been this way”…It’s sad to me how much we forget about the bigger picture…even in the small things.
Life, Emotion, Actions, Rules….etc
All put in to play by God…who defined exactly what each is.
So, I guess there is a point to this letter….
Never forget the true power and importance of everything…and stop just living life without questioning the very fabrics of space and time…big or small…it’s important, and its made for a reason….
But just because it has always been this way…or so we are told…doesn’t mean we should forget that it is changeable…and that it isn’t just “set in stone”.
I’ll be honest…I came into this letter with just one word…Inexplicable…and this is what happened…good or bad…pointless or life-changing.
But I guess now I have a letter to go with the word hah.
Such a ironic sentence no? Anyway, just finish up knowing this…if nothing else…question it all…all of it…and never just settle for what you’ve been told…or what you assume or know has always been this way…to me, it’s a waste of time, and life to go without questioning….
And it is also a waste…to go on with life without knowing that true power of God….the true power of everything.
That it truly is….
Inexplicable.
Photoshopness
Jan 13th
Okay, so I’m trying to get back into the habit of blogging, and photoshopping daily :]
I’ve been doing PS off and on…and blogging….never |:
SOOO…here is a bunch of randomness from photoshop…newest to oldest :]
Christmas Recap
Dec 27th
So. It’s been awhile no?
Sorry, really…sorry…
First off on the list of things…I GOT TO SPEND A EARLY CHRISTMAS WITH MADISON FOR 3 DAYS! ![]()
We got to spend 3 full days at her Grana’s house from the 20th-22nd of December :] and they really made me feel like family <3
Got a bunch of nifty stuffies from Madison, her mom Kristi, her bro Parker, and her Grana and Granpa…so overall an amazing week :]
Then I got to spend christmas day with my family, that including Brandon, Sarah, Amber, Michael, Josh, and Aaryn as well :] Almost didn’t get to due to the ice (well Amber & Michael anyway…they like in Ada,OK
)
Also got alot of stuffies from all of them, and just had a fun time spending quality time with my family :]
Well…I know its a really bland recap, but I thought I’d let you in on my Christmas events ![]()
Hmm…I guess to fill the dead air I’ll add some pics!
Later my bloggettes!
Death.
Nov 12th
It scares everyone. It surprises us all. It sneaks up on us or someone we love off guard. And there is nothing you can do to stop it.
Scary thought, no?
If it isn’t then you are one of the rare few that have no fear of death. But what exactly, is death? And what, if anything, is after?
The definition of death states “Death: a permanent cessation of all vital bodily functions - the end of life”
But is this true? Is it the end? As soon as your body is dead..is that really, truly “the end of life”?
To most, no, it is not the end. It is only the beginning of something better, or worse…
For an example, let’s try some common religions.
Buddhist: Buddhists maintain that rebirth takes place without an unchanging self or soul passing from one form to another. The type of rebirth will be conditioned by the moral tone of the person’s actions (karma). For example, where a person has committed harmful actions of body, speech and mind based on greed, hatred and delusion, rebirth in a lower realm, i.e. an animal, a ghost or a hell realm, is to be expected. On the other hand, where a person has performed skillful actions based on generosity, loving-kindness (metta), compassion and wisdom, rebirth in a happy realm, i.e. human or one of the many heavenly realms, can be expected.
Islam: Islam teaches that the purpose of man’s creation is essentially to be kind to other human beings and to worship the Creator of the Heavens and Earth – Allah. Islam teaches that life lived on this Earth is a test for man to determine each individual’s ultimate reward or punishment in the afterlife, which is eternal and everlasting.
Christianity: Christian beliefs about the afterlife vary between denominations and individual Christians, but the vast majority of Christians believe in some kind of heaven, in which believers enjoy the presence of God and other believers and freedom from suffering and sin. One belief says that God, in His own time and in His own way, will bring the world to its appropriate end. According to His promise, Jesus Christ will return personally and visibly in glory to the earth; the dead will be raised; and Christ will judge all men in righteousness. The unrighteous will be consigned to Hell, the place of everlasting punishment. The righteous in their resurrected and glorified bodies will receive their reward and will dwell forever in Heaven with the Lord.
Atheist(or the lack of religion): One famous and well known Atheist named John Leslie states that ” Each of us, is immortal because our life patterns are but an aspect of an “existentially unified” cosmos that will persist after our death. The soul, consists of information, not matter. And one of the deepest principles of quantum theory, called “unitarity,” forbids the disappearance of information.”
“What good is this doing me, now I’m freaking confused…thanks Andrew.”
I’m getting to my point…stop being impatient.
So which should you believe? That’s not my decision.
But what do I recommend? I recommend that whatever you believe in, you really make sure whats going on, and you’re sure its the truth.
For me? Well I believe in Christianity.
That Jesus Christ was a immaculate conception from the virgin girl named Mary, and that Jesus is the Son of God. I also believe in the Gifts of the Spirit.
That sin is sin, we are all born into a fleshly body that naturally wants to sin, but that you need but only accept Christ into your heart, and he’s there with loving arms for as long as you keep a committed relationship with him.
That you try to live the best, sinless life you can, but that everyone is human and we make a mistake, but Jesus will always be there waiting with His hand out to pick you up and accept you just the same.
That you can only make it into Heaven through His name, Jesus Christ, because he, and he alone shed His own blood on the cross for all of our sins we ever have committed, are committing, and will commit, and that if you choose to deny him as your Lord and God, and blaspheme His name, that he says “But since you are lukewarm and not hot or cold, and I will spew you from my mouth.”.
But, again, this is only for those who choose to live a life full of sin, and not repent for their wrong doings, and accept Jesus’ free gift of forgiveness and love, that is always available.
And that in the end days, Revelation will take place, and that a judgment will befall the world for its unrepentant, perverse wickedness, and blasphemy.
And after that we will reign in heaven for 1000 years until God creates a New Heaven, and a New Earth for us all.
Did I always believe the above?
No. I found out after much studying of many religions and beliefs, that this is the one I know is true.
And does that mean that I’ll never question any of it again?
No. I’m too much of a thinker.
So does that mean I’m not sure what I believe in then?
Again, no. I just question everything.
I cant force you to believe what I do, and I’m not trying and I’m not going to try to.
But I will tell you this, I didn’t just believe what my parents did, I didn’t just believe what is the easiest thing to go by or to get away with the most stuff (obviously). But after awhile I knew that this was it, and that it was so much better then all the rest. That having a intimate relationship with a almighty and never-ending being was alot better then believing in dead gods/gods that never speak back to you, or that we are nothing at all, but matter.
So, main point?
Really take the time to sit down and ask questions about your beliefs, why you believe them, and what it means and does for you, especially after your body ceases to function and you are at “a permanent cessation of all vital bodily functions - the end of life”. It’s alot more important then you probably thought it was before this blog. hopefully anyway.
Meaning.
Nov 11th
The Point of it all…
What is the point of it all? Really, think about that question truly and wholly, and you’ll find its hard to answer…why?
Want an example?
If you told me “the point of it all is to get as rich as you can and live your life to the fullest”…
I’d ask you the simple question “why?” whoa…didn’t think about that one much did you?
What I mean is sure…it’s nice to have money, and in turn nice things and able to do a lot of stuff…but why do it? Why go out and work your end off, to have finally by the time you are in your late 20’s – early 40’s to have hopefully made a good sum of money. Just to spend on things that will be useless soon, breakdown, digress in fun, and pretty much be useless to you once you’re dead.
Oh, okay, you didn’t mean make money for stuff…you meant a lot of money to go out, party, get drunk/high, and have a night full of wild sex with a hottie from a club…right? Again I would ask “why?”
First off, you can only party so long and all it’s doing is making you tired and sweaty.
Secondly, getting drunk only lasts so long, and doing more will kill you…and getting high on a drug will only do so much for you, and get you addicted, and either…luckily kill you, or even worse make you lose all your wealth on this addiction you made, and be living on nothing, having to give blowjobs to a perverse fat man named “Pete” to get a gram or two of your drug of choice….
Oh, but I left out all those hottie’s in the club you get to have all that crazy/wild sex with…right?
No, that’s next.
Sex only fills a need (yes a very good feeling need) for so long, until you have to stop.
And you know what? Just having sex is useless….
I plan on it…
Ok, so you take a hot, young woman home, do your thing, and she leaves that night or the following morning…then what?…you do it again with someone else….and someone else…and someone else…and…oh…you’re too old…now the hotties think you look like a old pervert…
And you know what? Now you have two options…Hire hookers, or actually try to date someone.
But you know what that does? By the time you are done “Having fun, being single, and living like a king” all the girls even worth marrying are taken, or are not interested in someone who has done every girl he has came in contact with.
So you end up alone, and with a empty place in your home, and your heart…and you’ll realize that instead of partying, getting quick fixes, and having sex with alot of random women, you should have given a crap about one of them, or another girl.
Because guess what? Good job…your life of “partying” didn’t pay off well in the end…you’re alone…or still filling it with quick fixes, stuck with a girl you got pregnant you don’t love, or you have to use your money to get another fill of happiness in the form of booze, drugs, or sex.
And you realize something…you just screwed up ad wasted your whole life on petty useless things…all those “stories” you were able to tell friends are gone…because as soon as the wealth, fame, or fun is gone…so will those “friends” you had. Your alone, pathetic, and miserable…
But oh hey! There is all that precious money of yours still…maybe anyway…so how much does that green paper have meaning now?
Not as much huh?What is the point of this?
Nothing really…
I’m just trying to get across in my own way of saying that there is nothing of or from this world that will feel our needs.
Think About It.
2 weeks since…
Nov 10th
…I have blogged. Ughhhh…I’m sorry…it kinda gets hard to remember to
Anyway, whats really happened? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING….
OH…OH…wait…I lied…I GOTSTA SEE ME MADISON-O!!!! :] that made my week…and month haha.
Pics here :}
Myspace – Facebook
Oook…so as you can see…it made me very happy haha…and yeah…from then to now…really nothing major has happened anyone would care to even know hah.
Oh, but you know what is in a few days? My oldest bro Brandon’s Wedding Ceremony!!!
…I’m in it too!
Oooh! I also get to see Madison again at it!!!
That will make this week…and month prob too ;]
Ok, so…that’s all I really have to share I can think of really at the moment…
Sorry.
Ehh, Ahh, and Ooh.
Oct 29th
So, today was kinda meh…
I woke up like always to the voice of my beautiful Madison on the phone, then I fell back to sleep ![]()
After that I didn’t wake up till 1pm. Yeah, I know….you foresaw it with how late my last blog was eh?
Well then after I woke up I got to talk to my love a little on IM while she was at school (Yes, when she’s not busy, not when she’s supposed to be doing school
) then when she had to go I did nothing till she was out of school…well..something happened…but I rather not discuss it here online…or even in any other way….
But anyway, took a shower around 4pm, and soon as I was out…MY MADISON CALLED! :] — Yes I’m aware I get like a giddy 5yr old boy who just got a lollipop given to him when it’s about Madison…and no, I don’t regret it at all :] She makes me so happy and bubbly :]
Anyway, talked to her up until round 5:30pm when she had to leave to go to the Haunted House her school is throwing this week…and I left at 6pm for church anyways…we went up there to fill bags of candy for kids, to hand out this week….but we also got cheese bread and a pizza! WHOO!!! :]
Then at around 8:45pm my love called me while she was on a break with a friend at sonic getting a snack, and had to go soon after
So, when I got home at around 9pm I got on the PC…WOO!!! Haha…And I played Fallout 3 some more (I didn’t even realize that 3 more expansions came out…so I dug out my game and reinstalled it
), and then decided to get Borderlands…so I did…and OOOH…I like so far….I didn’t get to play long…I got my character to level 2 and that’s it…because Madison called and told me to do homework
haha.
Then we talked for a bit till she needed to head to bed, So I finished up my homework, then headed back on here to check my email and stuffs one last time, and ended up downloading some windows 7 updates, avg updates, and going a quick disk defrag with the awesome Auslogics Disk Defrag :]
Finally, after all of that I got on here to blog….and that’s been my day!
Oh, and I’m part of a new site now called Dailybooth and I forgot to even say, or add it…so I’ll add it to my links list to the right. :]
~Ba Da Dum Bum~
Oct 28th
Yes, I know I’m behind in this…I’m sorry…forgive me? kthx <3 u
<– uber geek for that sentence I know…
Anyway, it has almost been a week I’m sorry
Well must hasn’t happened this week at all…
Haha…oh, except the fact Madison has me on a new schedule, which is something like…
12am bed-time + 7am wake-up time + homework (which she organized for me what to do daily) done daily by 4:30PM + keeping at trying to find a job – fun – a say in any of it = the plan I’m now on
Haha I’m kidding baby :] I need it…I really do, I procrastinate sooo bad…and this is my Senior year, so I need someone like her to kick my butt in gear, and keep it there. So thanks baby :] *kiss*
Speaking of me Madison-o! I GET TO SEE HER FRIDAY! EEEEEK!K!!K!K!K!KEEK!E!E!!!!! :]
I’m happy. Very. Very. Happy. :]
And well that’s kinda been my week…lots of homework, trying to get into the habit of waking up earlier. and yes, I know its later then 12am right now…but that’s because I’m behind in blogging and I couldn’t sleep because I’m thinking of alot of crap I need to get done by late December :\ @the few that know why….eeek! :]
Oh, well I guess here is all the random pictures I taken or edited in the last week :]
U2 WAS AMAZING! :] Oh, And The Rest of My Week.
Oct 22nd
So, I haven’t blogged in awhile…sorry
Well, so…
Saturday: Did some last minute packing for Oklahoma trip…ate, talked on the phone some…then around 5pm we headed out…many songs and silliness-ness later…we arrived in Ada, OK where my sister Amber lives at about 7:30pm’ish?
We unpacked the musical gear from the truck…then headed to Blue Moon Cafe…which, is where this was taken of Jessie ![]()
Then we headed to the church to practice…Josh, Jessie, Amber, Michael (her husband), and I played for my sister’s church on sunday morning ;]
After about 2hrs we were done learning about 6 songs…most of which were new to Amber and Michael…and 1 was new to us all except Josh, who wrote it…and writes most of what we play…we being The Joshua Band aka. Josh, Jessie, Chris(who couldn’t come) and I…
And jeez…my hands we’re literally about to bleed and we’re blistered…and ripped in 3 places…because they have their drums in a box thing…so you have to beat the heck out of them to get dynamics ![]()
After that we headed to Michael’s dad Mickey’s house, and unpacked…that is where we slept ![]()
And I talked to my Madison till about 4:30am that night…long story…..and to you Madison…thank you, and I believe and accept it now…hopefully over time I’ll learn to trust in it more and make use to it like you have my love….
Sunday: Woke up about 9am…got ready, and headed to Life Community Church to play :]
After church, we headed to Rib Crib (delllicious :]), and this is where I took a pic of my hands seen here…this picture doesnt do them justice to how bad it was sadly ![]()
after that we went back to Pastor Mickey’s house and changed…then around 4pm we headed over to Amber’s house…then at around 4:30pm we headed out to Norman, OK….To see U2
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got there, got inside, found our seats…and at around 7pm Black Eyed Peas started…They were good…but dude with the mo-hawk cannot sing worth a crap live…but My Humps, Boom Boom Pow, I Gotta Feeling, and Big Girls Don’t Cry was still awesome live though :] Will-i-am and Fergie are still awesome sounding live :]
Then at around 8:45pm U2 started :] EEE!:D…..and LORD GOD JESUS…I had a Concertgasm
Like seriously…it’s gonna be hard to enjoy any other concert now…I mean think about it…I’ve seen the best one in every way…so now everything else will fall short in all but prob one or two areas hah. Vids here. Pics here or here
Then after the amazing show (we got out at about 12:20am) we drove home…got home around 2am because of the crazy traffic…and headed to bed.
Monday: didn’t wake up till around 1pm haha…then we woke up, went to Amber’s house for a bit….went and ate at Braum’s…then went back to the church loaded up our gear, then went to Amber’s house again…and chilled there till around 3:20pm when we headed out…
Got home at around 5:20pm…then I talked on the phone till around 1am. and went to bed.
Tuesday: What did I do tuesday? not alot haha…Talked on the phone, worked on random Gfx, uploaded U2 videos and pictures…and oh, stayed up till 5am fixing the church’s pc…I fixed it at around 10pm…it was a bad PSU…and I happened to have a spare one from eariler…and fixed it…then I got anything off of it we could use (Dad bought it from another church that was shutting down, and selling off their stuff for $100)…
Then reformatted it, and installed a fresh new install of Windows XP – Vortex 3G RED Edition, then loaded it with software we need like MediaShout, WinDVD, K-Lite Codec Pack…etc and other software you need really like Auslogics BoostSpeed, CCleaner, Filezilla…etc ![]()
After doing all that, upgrades, fixing random stuff like missing audio and ethernet drivers, and cleaning off un-needed hardware…it was around 5am
Wednesday: Today? not alot…talked on the phone with Madison alot, done homework, messed with stuff on the pc, talked on the phone some more…chatted with some old friends I haven’t in a long while on Facebook (Hi Sparky!
), and then started this.
So that has been my weekend /week. :]
...anyway....did this for a good bit, then I was up just walking around and playing with meh demon cat 

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